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August 26, 2015

Book Review: Since You've Been Gone by Morgan Matson

Since You've Been GoneSince You've Been Gone by Morgan Matson
Rating: /5

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Since You’ve Been Gone is the book that will perfectly complete your pleasure in reading YA contemporary. I read a lot of contemporary books in my life. There were those books that swept me off my feet, there were books that got me raised my eyebrows in, and there were books that left me with no feeling other than a fun time spent reading. I’ve read two books from Morgan Matson and both of them belong to the first category.
Just like in Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour, Ms. Matson uses a light tone to voice out the story through the narrator in this book. With a simple yet astonishingly adventurous plot, she brings up a fun read to enjoy thoroughly every single page of it.

Since You’ve Been Gone tells a story about Emily Hughes, a high-school girl who lacks a little too much in social-life department. She’s the kind of girl who always stays on the back of a group of people, nodding at what they say, and prefer to stay invisible than being a spotlight. It’s not that she’s a pariah or someone with a lot of haters. Emily is just shy and born socially-awkward when actually she’s a fun girl to hang out with once you know her well. Befriending Sloane seems to be the best fit since she’s all everything Emily isn’t: easygoing, practically the center of attention everywhere, and daring. Sloane is the girl everyone wants to be friend with and that’s a good thing too for Emily as Sloane has become the bridge that connecting Emily to the others, to the outside world. With Sloane, Emily never has to worry about being the first to start up conversation with others. With Sloane, Emily could easily join in the talk and even make up funny jokes which she strangely couldn’t do when she’s on her own. And with Sloane, that’s when everything feels more reachable for Emily. Sloane makes her ‘sees’ that. Sloane makes her believes that. It’s like Sloane is the sun that makes Emily’s beautiful unlit world shining bright.

So when Sloane goes AWOL one day in the beginning of summer, everything seems to fall apart above and around Emily. Moreover after she and Sloane has gone day and night planning the best holiday in their lives. It feels exactly like a nightmare: unbelievably real and scary as hell. Sloane has literally just disappeared. No words. Not even just simply goodbye. It’s not until two weeks later that a letter comes to Emily with a white envelope, a very familiar handwriting on it. Unlike what Emily expects the letter is about (where Sloane was at the moment or at least why she left out of sudden without saying anything), Sloane sent Emily a checklist in which half of them are the things that Emily would never think of doing, even in her wildest dream.

The checklist brings back the memories from the good ‘ol days when Sloane would make Emily a to-do list and challenge her to do them for fun. Emily used to just laugh at the list instead of finishing them off. But it’s a whole different case this time. The list is the only thing that still makes Sloane hasn’t completely gone and forgotten about her. To cross each thing off the list might be the only way to find her. So here begins Emily’s unexpected summer where the list takes her to a very un-Emily world. The things on the list might be such a burden for her―her being an unsociable person and all―but it also the very thing that brings Emily to learn more about herself and experience the beautiful of friendship from unexpected people in the summer that goes unexpectedly fascinating. In the end, the list doesn’t just give Emily the answer to her question all summer but also the answer to the question she’s been asking all her life.

The use of a to-do list to develop the plot is really an interesting and unique idea. If we take the to-do list out of the story, we could see that the plot is actually pretty simple. And instead of letting Emily finishes the things on the list ordinarily, Ms. Matson puts several twists making it even more fascinating. She perfectly fits ‘the list’ as one of the main element of the story and turns an ordinary story of a sad summer into an escapade of a shy girl takes place in the summer. We could ‘see’ how Emily sounds so lost and lonely with no one to spend a summer with in the beginning. Then as she decides to break her shell and step out to the world where social life has been going every day, she finds out that actually friends, companies, and even love is just somewhere near, around her if she’s just brave enough to look for them.

The past memories slipped within each chapter give a background story of Emily’s friendship with Sloane which started out with an accidental encounter of both of them then just flowed as Sloane’s charming demeanor entwined perfectly with Emily’s quiet trait. Even though Sloane is absent on majority of the book, we get a clear depiction of her personality and I pretty like her. Meanwhile, Emily is a character that I could easily relate with as we share a lot of similar traits. I feel kind of sad for her with the way she reacts to Sloane’s disappearance. The way she makes it seem like the world is falling apart without Sloane in it just shows how low Emily’s self-confidence is. While their friendship is a beautiful bond, it’s not entirely perfect because of the unbalance Emily’s issue has created. I love that Ms. Matson uses the absent of a best friend as the very thing that makes someone realizes how a perfect friendship should have been and at the same time helps them see more of their worth.

While the friendship ‘feel’ is really strong, the romance doesn’t get covered as much but still adds a plus point to the story. I love how the romance is built between Emily and Frank Porter, the boy with whom Emily crosses majority things off of the list with. It goes slowly, carefully; it’s moving inch by inch as we are brought along in a sweet friendship-making of the characters to a stronger level of chemistry between boys and girls.

I laughed a lot while reading this book because of some funny scenes and the awkwardness of Emily itself that becomes more embarrassing time to time. But it also made me a little teary-eyed somewhere near the ending which is truly appreciated because I’m all about a rollercoaster-kind-of-feel while reading rather than staying at one constant feel throughout the book.

About the ending, I never knew I would like this kind of ending that Morgan Matson seemed so drawn in using it. It’s the one she uses Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour as well. It’s indicating a happy end but the ending scene is presented in a subtle manner. She doesn’t necessarily put a wrap on every single twist but instead she chooses to focus on one thing and let the readers judge the ends of the rest.

Since You’ve Been Gone is not be the book that you could easily finished in one sitting for its length that goes on forever than other contemporary books (or at least, it is in my case). But if you’re looking for a light read that’s not just enjoyable but adventurous and have good lessons implied too, then this book is for you. With a delightful writing style, Since You’ve Been Gone delivers a pleasant story of a girl’s discovery of her self-worth, hidden urge to take a risk, and true meaning of friendship during a period of summer when most of the big things of teenagers’ life happenor so I’ve heard.
“I know things might not work.

And I know it’s scary, but the things that are worth it are. It feels right.”
“What is that like?”
“Like a well-ordered universe.”
(Chapter XVII; Since You’ve Been Gone)
Well, just go give this book a try!


Love, read, and review,
Cynthia D.

August 3, 2015

Book Review: Alienated (Alienated #1) by Melissa Landers

Alienated (Alienated, #1)
Rating:  /5

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Alienated has been on my TBR list for quite some times. The eye-catching cover was the first thing that draws me in. Also, sci-fi is my top second favorite genre after contemporary so this book easily caught my attention when I first saw it on GR. Too bad I just had time to read it now since I’ve been too engrossed in contemporary ones.

First of all, I like the basic concept of Alienated that ―compared to other sci-fi books I’ve read before― is quite fresh to me. Majority of sci-fi books I know often brings up alien as cruel invaders of Earth but Ms. Landers comes up with a different idea through her Alienated series. In this book, alien is represented as friendly extraterrestrial being that actually want to work together with humans through some sort of mutualism. This is such an interesting concept that for once we get to see aliens and humans building a friendly relationship instead of having a war in some invasive action. I couldn’t help being curious of what kind of mutualism both parties would create.

Aliens believed that there must be another living creature besides them in the whole galaxy. So they had been going on some journey to find them, not only in their galaxy, but also to another galaxy possible to reach. Earth was found 10 years later since their first journey and became the first planet with living creatures that have the same anatomy as them. So two years ago, L’eihrs ―the aliens who conduct the intergalactic search― finally make their first contact with humans.

Fast forward to present time, L’eihrs and humans have come so far to the level of both parties agree to do a student exchange program to learn more good possibilities before an alliance is made permanently. And this… is where the story begins.

Cara Sweeney is one of the three ‘luckiest’ students who are chosen to join the exchange program. It means she gets an excessive amount of scholarship which would be an amazing deal considering how her family’s financial issue has been really bad, but in returns she and her family have to be the host for one of L’eihrs’ students for eight months. It sounds pretty easy, until she realizes that her life is about to turn upside down in every way possible ever since Aelyx, the L’eihrs who gets to stay with her, takes a step to her small comfy house.

I thought this book would use first POV from one main character or better, alternating first POV from both main characters. But it’s not. And I think it’s a bit unfortunate because I couldn’t get to learn their emotions closely, being the third person in the story and with the abrupt perspective changes time to time. It somehow makes the chemistry between me and the book so thin and slowly fading away throughout the story. I don’t know but first POV always makes me feel understand every book much better because I could feel the emotion exactly as what the characters feel. Good thing Ms. Landers writes Alienated in a fun tone with amusing female main character, Cara. So even if I couldn’t really get the chemistry built up, I enjoyed reading it.

The opening chapter is quite engaging for me. It starts with Cara joining exchange program through one-sided decision of L’eihrs. She doesn’t even apply for one but there she sits at principal’s office, being told she is to be the host of some cold emotionless alien from galaxy thousand years light away. The situation is a bit comical and intriguing at the same time. Although, the use of some foreign L’eihrs terms like, sh’alear, l’ina, sh’ovah, sh’ad, asheem, and sh’ellam (yes, I dutifully highlighted them all while reading) make me a bit light headed at first. But don’t worry, because we get the explanation one by one along the way (even if sh’alear isn’t going to be explained clearly from the first time it is mentioned at 3% until around 90% where I yelled ‘DAMN, finally someone answers my question!’).

Aelyx is your typical cold, insensitive, gorgeous-as-hell alien. He loathes being a part of the exchange program but he has no choice other than obeying the command. Humans are repulsive and Aelyx believes that alliance between aliens and humans would be a great disadvantage for his people. That’s also why he agrees to stay on Earth because besides the given mission of learning more about humans and Earth, he and his two other partners in the program have another mission to conduct. That, until he meets his host which turns out is nothing like what he thinks human is all along. At first, Aelyx is amused on what Cara keeps doing to make his stay on Earth as comfortable as possible but the more he witnesses her determination, the more he feels something strange for the human girl. For an alien standard, Aelyx is quite naughty. He’s so quick to pick up humans’ behavior of having racy thoughts of opposite gender. He does it a lot to Cara. Guess every boy is the same, no matter what your kind.

Cara, smart, brave, determined, and funny is usually my favorite kind of female mc. Truthfully, I like her especially on how determined she is to do her job as a good host for Aelyx. She experiences such a clichรฉ high-school tragedy (breaks up with her boyfriend of three years, loses her best friend of six years, and becomes the school’s pariah ―which happened in a whole new level because it involves an alien in the process) and how she deals with them, I like it.
But then…
Then she did something totally jaw-dropping which made me, well, drop my jaw. It happened during the first climax in the book and I was totally like… wow girl. Since then it’s difficult to see her in the same way because somehow that scene shows her true color towards her closed people. It’s too much, I think. I mean, Cara’s practically still a high-school student, and to think she’s capable to do such non-sense thing just for a sake of ‘love’? Well. I am speechless, really.


What’s so good is how the romance between Aelyx and Cara is built. I like that they go through a lot before realizing the attraction between them. I always feel weird of insta-love, especially for such ‘forbidden’ one. It’s good that their relationship starts as strangers turn program partners who help each other turn friends turn lovers. Their feelings grow up slowly through a plain togetherness. I love when they’re together where Aelyx becomes so caring and shows a lot of emotions for Cara. What makes it off is how at one point, their love changes Cara into such an irresponsible and rebellious seventeen years old girl. 


This book has other characters with various characteristics from hideous to lovely. Hideous like some of Cara’s friends and Aelyx’s. Lovely like Cara’s parents. I like it so much that her parents do their job as parents very well. It’s really sad that their kids don’t really show as much love as they do to them.


Even though there are things that I dislike about this book, I still am curious on how things would turn out in book two. The cliffhanger isn’t so bad but I just wish there will be more progress on the sequel and more pace on the plot. Alienated feels more like an introduction of the series. And I hope Invaded deals with the main issue of aliens-humans alliance continuation. Oh, and I hope to see more of L’eihrs’ planet because we only get a tiny glimpse of it here.
I guess I’ll settle with 3.5 points for book 1 but I’m hoping to give more for book two!

Love, read, and review,
Cynthia D.

July 20, 2015

Book Review: Love Always, Kate (Love Always #1) by D. Nichole King

Love Always, Kate (Love Always, #1)
Rating:  (4.5)/5

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I dove into this book without any information beforehand about what this book would be about. It’s not the first time I did this, though, but this time this book surprised me because it went so far away with what I imagined. I picked up the kindle of this book on Amazon only because of the cover and the intriguing title. I just thought it’d be some YA contemporary romance ―which generally my favorite kind of genre with light sweet story and nice HEA. What I didn’t expect was to find a tear-jerking story of a girl in the mid of fighting her deadly illness who met a boy with emotional issue from big loss in the past. Two broken souls trying mend each other. One of them taught that life is worth fighting for even if it’s for such a selfish reason. The other taught that death is not the end of one’s connection with someone that gone away, definitely not the end of every chemistry built between them.
“I wanna see the sun rise with you every morning for the rest of my life.”
(Chapter XXVII; Love Always, Kate)
Kate Browdy, cancer survivor, had been diagnosed again with new round of cancer for the third time. After the same-old reaction from her and both parents, Kate was back to the same-old cycle with same-old routine: chemo and the whole treatments. This time she was way more prepared, though, she went out to buy a blank journal that would soon be filled with entries of her long long way going through this despicable journey of hers. Apparently, this time was also different. This time a boy appeared on her war zone, waving a flag. Not the white one, but the red one that ignited a fire within her soul. Or it seemed so.
‘Is it too much to hope that maybe, just maybe he could look past the cancer and see me?’ 
(Chapter II; Love Always, Kate)
Damian Lowell lost his mom and big brother to a tragic accident which left him broken and undone. His dad was on the same state that it’s kind of hard to present wholly, emotionally for him. Damian and his dad often got into arguments which lead to drunken Damian and frustrated Dr. Lowell. This circumstance left him to deal with his own way of grieving involving alcohol. He often got drunk and when things got too worse, he even did a lot of unpleasant thing that got him expelled twice for his irresponsible behaviors. He lived such a reckless life, until the day he stumbled into that door by fate. The door that led a way to a girl called Kate.
‘“I admire you. You’re strong.”
I was strong because cancer is resolute, and I didn’t want the beast to win.’
(Chapter III; Love Always, Kate)
On the first encounter, Kate felt like Damian had shown a light to her hopeless life. In return, Damian felt attracted to Kate for her spirit of fighting cancer and her calmness in facing such tragic and cruel fate. They hung out together and soon, with all their lacks and matches, they fell in love with each other. Slowly and deeply.
‘Pain, even though it hurt, made us stronger― if it didn’t destroy us first.’ 
(Chapter V; Love Always, Kate)
It was not a fairy tale story, the path that lay in front of Damian and Kate. It’s not simply a girl and a boy fall in love, together conquer every barrier with the power of their love, and live happily ever after. Kate’s cancer was getting worse day by day. And Damian’s emotional was sometimes still gone bad. But after all, the clichรฉ about power of love might not a fiction to sugarcoat a romance story. It might happen to them.
‘Pain has a purpose, it makes us stronger. More compassionate. Able to love more deeply than we thought possible. If we let it, it makes us better people.’
(Chapter XXXII; Love Always, Kate)
Together, Kate and Damian healed each other. Kate showed Damian different way to deal with grief. Damian made Kate realized that for once in her life, she might not want to hesitate fighting for her life; that she wanted so badly to be a normal teenager with normal life.
‘There’s never enough time to see good-bye. Never enough time to say, “I love you.” Never enough time to let go. I could have been given a thousand years with Damian, and still not be able to do this.’
(Chapter XXV; Love Always, Kate)
When for the first time in their life, they thought they finally found a healing to their long wound. The lost feeling of Damian. The hopeless feeling of Kate. But fate chose this moment to give them one last important lesson of loving someone for real: you don’t always need a happy end to feel the best kind of love, because what’s best isn’t how it ends, it’s how you feel in the moment, how you feel for each other during the time you spend together. How you grow up together, change each other to better ways, and learn just what exactly being in love is: it’s a mixture of hectic and calmness, happiness and sadness, start and end, found and lost.
‘Being strong means allowing yourself to cry over the things you can’t change; laugh when things are funny; smile when you’re happy. It means understanding where your breaking point is, and yet, going further and still remaining whole. Strong people push themselves to the limits of pain and joy. They fall to their knees in agony, then they lift up their faces to find the beautiful morning rays shining down on them, and they rise to their feet. Being strong means never giving up, no matter how crushed you are, and finding happiness in the smallest parts of life.’
(Chapter XXXII; Love Always, Kate)
It was like a roller coaster ride with this book. I don’t remember how many times I cried nor do I remember on which chapter it happened exactly. I think I read it in one sitting and became a blubbering mess after I close the last page.
I read a lot of books before which main character diagnosed with cancer. The feeling is always different on each book. With a fast-paced plot, Love Always, Kate goes in YA genre with hero/heroine around 17 years old. I personally think that Ms. King succeeded in presenting the plot through 17 years old teenager’s eyes. Both main characters’ behaviors show exactly how teenagers would act like in real life. They don’t necessarily go all ‘old-soul’ in words just to strengthen the emotional of the story. I like it that Kate, being a 17 years old girl still think of things like crushing on a boy and worrying about her look as real problems aside her terminal illness. Kate is funny, so high-spirited, care so much for everyone around her, but what I love the most is her determination to make Damian a better person. I love how her parents deal with Kate. Unlike most fictional parents with cancer kids who sometimes choose to detach or even go all too protective which might come out annoying, Kate’s parents treat Kate very well. They’re protective but not too much; they fall apart but hold on strongly to each other for her. It’s always a relief to see parents who do their jobs perfectly.
In other side, I feel a little frustrated for Damian’s character. I understand where he comes from; I feel so so bad for him. But when he projects his frustration to the wrong person, it’s disappointing, really. I could partly blame Damian’s dad for his condition. He might be a good doctor but he’s not a good father apparently. But Damian also takes the blame for the rest of it. When Damian falls for Kate, it’s so good to see him changes. I feel like crying all day when seeing how far he wants to go for her. I feel so touched by his love for her. I just dislike it when his moment comes out.
The ending is heartbreaking. Somehow I know just how it would end but along the way I built up hopes… Ms. King wraps the story up in a way so the readers could accept it well. I love how she creates Kate’s character so good until the end. I think I cried harder on the last chapter…
I’m going to read the second book for I am so damn curious on how Damian’s life goes on. I read bit and pieces of reviews about the sequel and well… I kind of regret it, though, lol. Hopefully I could find something that would make me fall in love with Damian the way I fall in love with Kate.


Love, read, and review,
Cynthia D.

July 12, 2015

Book Review: Bright Side (Bright Side #1) by Kim Holden

Bright Side (Bright Side, #1)
Rating: 

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I made a mental note to fill my July’s reading list with as many book as possible from my TBR list. The list volume is getting bigger and I admit I’m a little worried that it’ll pile up and up and never stop and I’ll end up missing a lot of good books from the list.
I chose Bright Side because its sequel kept appearing on my screen while I browsed something new to read on Amazon for weeks. The cover is so unique. It’s been a while since the last time I see a book cover that contains only with one singular color. It’s so neat, simple, and hides a lot of meaning behind its plainness. The cover itself already made me so eager to read the story inside.
And what a book I had chose there…
Bright Side has everything from bad to good quality a book could have. It’s boring, slow, and hard to get into in the beginning. And it’s mind-blowing, smile-inducing, heartbreaking, and tear-jerking right from the middle all the way to the end. I might a little hate this book at first but Bright Side performed such awesome theft operation through its plot that in the end I didn’t even realize my heart was already successfully stolen.


Kate Sedgwick had it hard for years. Absentee parents, physically and emotionally, in her family caused Kate to take control of her and her sister life from such early age. Kate herself was still on the phase when girls her age was in need of lots of care and affection and she already had to take care of her sister who had Down Syndrome. Not to mention bad treatment they received from their mentally-disturbed mother. Money ran out fast like rain water sliding off the rooftop in their home. With bills keep piling up, teenager Kate officially had another task on the plate: to work. But none of the above kept her from smiling from day to day. It was as if nothing could break her spirit, turn off her light, stop her pace, or wipe the good side inside her heart. It was like Kate Sedgwick was born to live all of her life positively. That’s the reason Gus Hawthorne, her best friend, called her Bright Side.

God knows Kate needed something to balance her miserable life. Gus and his mom were that ‘something’ for her. After finding out how miserable Kate and her sister’s condition, Gus’ mom literally tucked them into her wings and took care of them as if her own children. Kate couldn’t be more thankful for their thoughtful help. But being Bright Side, she still did a lot of things on her own. Even when they decided to move out, Kate and her sister chose to rent an old garage to sleep under than being nuisances for Hawthorne family. Kate gave up her full ride music scholarship at Grant for the sake of her sister. But fate pushed her into a whole different circumstance where she ended up in Grant eventually under scholarship but not for music. For the first time in her life, Kate would live far away from Gus and his mom. For the first time in her life, it would be just Kate against the world. 

Juggling with school and work was how Kate lived her life in Grant, Minnesota. Life was still the same hard kind here in the new town but Grant had introduced her to a lot of people with different characters and backgrounds. People who soon became her new family, people with their own issue, people who was saved from the edge of the cliff they’ve been standing at all their life until Kate came and pulled them back.
Among them was someone who reminded her that Kate might have lived all her life independently but it’s okay to need someone to take care of her one day. Someone who reminded her that her name might be Bright Side but it’s okay to come undone for once because it’s when that someone lent her their shoulder to lean on and cry to.
Keller Banks might be that someone for Kate.
And it might be true as long as they were willing to reveal all secrets that standing between them like some unbreakable brick wall.


“… You give me courage I never knew I had.”

“I didn’t do anything. I was there all along, you just had to find it.” 

(Sunday, November 6; Bright Side)
At first, everything went so slow and uneventful. I kept waiting where this story would take me but even until I finished the first half of the book, I still didn’t get what I wanted. I had to hold back my urge to put this book down again and again because honestly, I was really really bored.
But then on the second half of the book, the author seemingly started to roll her sleeves up and began writing her ‘actual’ story. The book started to pick up its pace and damn, she threw out twist after twist for us to deal with. Some was predictable some wasn’t and those that unpredictable shocked the hell out of me. Hands down, but I really didn’t see that coming at all. I’m impressed that Ms. Holden bravely opted for presenting this kind of twist that unquestionably would break a lot of hearts and probably gained her a lot of haters (Kidding. But I considered being one for a sec). But she had purpose for all this. Well, come to think of it, Ms. Holden actually put signs in some beginning scenes about what the readers would face later.
Every character in this book was developed very well. Kate was the most unique character of heroine I ever read about. She was, Good God, so positive about life and with everything thrown into her path. But not like most good persons who tended to appear weak and such, she was a total badass. A really good badass. She knew exactly when to get all soft and when to kick someone’s ass. She knew which people deserved her good side and which ones deserved her bad side. Not that she had any bad side. Her light personality, her broad-minded and mature perspective in seeing people and the way they act; she’s really awesome. Truthfully, I was a little skeptical of her too-good personality at first, moreover when I read scenes when she actually didn’t mind with people treating her badly. Not because she’s a weak but because she believed everyone had a reason to be who they are now and to never judge them simply by their doing. But the further I read, the more I realized how amazing this girl. With circumstances she was in, she still managed to appreciate life with all her heart and even help people with all her might. There was this thing she said that makes me adore her more,

‘Don’t judge each other. We all have our own shit. Keep your eyes on yours and your nose out of everyone else’s unless you’re invited in. And when you get the invitation, help, don’t judge.’ 

(Sunday, January 22; Bright Side)
I think it’d be such real advice for a lot of people, including me. Not that I’m like that all the time, but sometimes we did that without we even realized it. And learning from Kate, she’s really a great person who never judge people whatever they do.
Keller, even though his introduction was short, all of his scenes were enough to make me head over heels for him. His life was no fairytale either, but unlike Kate who stayed positive every damn time, Keller thought it was okay to give in and just went along with his own misery. Having his life mapped out neatly, Keller willingly buried deep his dream just for the sake of keeping people around him in happiness. He’d been living his life for years like that until one day someone walked through the door of the cafรฉ he worked at with some noisy doorbell in the background and for once in his life, he wanted a different path to take.
Love between Kate and Keller was instant. It bloomed on the first sight. It was quick and actually kind of comical how they could go all poetic in their mind thinking of each other the moment they met for the first time. Then, everything slowly grew deeper and I couldn’t help falling in love with their love.
I became a crying mess right from December 15 all the way to the last chapter: January 27. Seeing Kate’s braveness and Keller’s strong faith for them, I felt like witnessing a true real love story. My heart ached for them and I wished I could do something to make things better for them but in the end I was once again reminded that a sweet true love story isn’t necessary to have a happy ending. I was reminded to see the bright side of a tragedy.
Bright Side is the book you would enjoy for breaking your heart and making you accept that just fine. Because sometimes it takes the hurtful way to learn something important. This book broke my heart into pieces but it also taught me to put it back together and glued them tightly with ‘acceptance paste’.
Well, I’m glad I didn’t put this book too long on my TBR list ;)


Love, read, and review,
Cynthia D.

June 26, 2015

Book Review: The Law of Moses by Amy Harmon

The Law of Moses
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

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I always said on my previous reviews of Amy Harmon’s books that the word ‘beautiful’ wouldn’t cover what I truly thought about her books. Today, let me amend that opinion of mine:
Beautiful might not be enough to describe what I feel about this book. But we all know that beautiful is a strong word and sometimes calling someone/something beautiful is enough to make them standout than the others. Because somehow the simplest word means the truest, especially those that is said sincerely. And when we put the word ‘beautiful’ on someone/something, know that we already set a whole new definition of ‘beautiful’. Just like how everyone has different opinion upon something, some things have their own definition of certain things.

So now, I’ll put this to begin my review of The Law of Moses by Amy Harmon:
A beautiful book by a beautiful author. 
Simple but sincere.
Oh, looks like it’s going to be my new mantra from now on…
The Law of Moses is a beautiful book. And you can go on with another word like ravishing (which means stunningly beautiful) or stunning (which means strikingly beautiful) but after all they all go back to the basic word: beautiful. The Law of Moses is beautiful in its own way. And for me, it’s beautiful because it has a complex plot along with outstanding writing style and well-built characterizations and along with that, it delivers a very deep message that goes right through every heart of those who read it. And this book is written by a beautiful author that of course, beautiful in her own way. Ms. Harmon is beautiful for me because she writes amazingly and deeply meaningful books that if I’m being honest, quite hard to find nowadays.
Now that we get my issue of finding-the-right-opening-sentence-to-begin-my-review out of the way, let’s continue to my personalize synopsis of The Law of Moses and you can find my actual review afterward!
“It kind of bugs me that we’re supposed to ignore our differences like we don’t see them, when seeing them doesn’t have to be a negative.” 

(Moses; Chapter V, The Law of Moses)
Moses knew all right that he was different. Hell, he was different from the start. Not just from the color of his skin or the fact that he was born parentless. Moses Wright was known widely ever since he was still an infant wrapped up with a blanket in a laundry basket. Having a poignant history, he grew up with a shadow of her mother’s bad image haunting his every step. Add that with the test saying he was born as crack baby. But Moses was fine with all that. He was even already long over people’s whispering this and that about him. After all, people were just like that. Instead of finding out the real history behind someone’s life, they tended to ‘create’ their own version of history of that someone’s life. Ironically, that version was usually sold out much faster than the original one.

When he was almost eighteen, his great grandmother brought him to leave with her in Levan. Moses felt much safer living with the 80 years old granny than being juggled here and there without certain affections being poured into his plate. GG, as he called her, knew better how to take care of Moses. People said Moses was crazy. But GG witnessed that Moses was just a little different. Even he showed amazing talent no one ever shown at his age. Moses could paint. God, how he could paint like a maestro at his best. And he did it every single day. But this was where the difference comes out. When many artists painted living things or just anything with beautiful meaning behind them, Moses painted the dead. Not just any dead person but the dead who actually came around and asked to be painted. This was not a mystical tale about someone with supernatural ability. This was Moses and how he tried to figure out the right thing to do with the gift given to him. 

Georgia was a girl growing up among foster kids and horses. Not that she was one of the kids or not that she lived in a barn. Georgia’s parents were foster parents and they had a lot of horses that they used for equine therapy with the kids. Being the only child, she became less dependent and worked hard helping her parents taking care of the horses and the barn. Georgia was a barrel racer and she’d been dreaming to work her way out to be on circuit but some circumstances happening in their small town held back her plan. The summer before graduation now felt like a long stretch in front of her. Until Moses came around.
“I’m a very ordinary girl, Moses. I know that I am. And I always will be. I can’t paint. I don’t know who Vermeer is, or Manet for that matter. But if you think ordinary can be beautiful, that gives me hope. And maybe sometimes you’ll think about me when you need an escape from the hurt in your head.” 

(Georgia; Chapter V, The Law of Moses)
Georgia couldn’t exactly pinpoint what it was about Moses but it seemed like she always chased after him in every moment. Maybe the fact that he was crack, or maybe the eccentricities of his paintings, or maybe just the beauty seemingly hidden behind his striking eyes color; they all seemed to be the reason Georgia wouldn’t stop coming after him. No matter how much warning she’d been received all along.
“And Lucky is just like you!” I said.

“Because he’s black?”

“No, stupid. Because he’s in love with me, and he tries to pretend every day like he doesn’t want to have anything to do with me,” I shot back. 
(Chapter V, The Law of Moses)
Moses had no more idea how to shake the questionable sanity in Georgia’s mind. The girl obviously didn’t pay good attention about warnings. She was so persistent which half-relieving and half-terrifying for him.
‘Georgia’s problems were not my problems. Georgia was my problem.’ 

(Moses; Chapter VI, The Law of Moses)
And as much as he enjoyed her company, he should know better that maybe after all it wasn’t her who’s in trouble. With girl like Georgia, it most likely he was the one who’s in trouble.
“Georgia, you better run.”

“Why would I do that, Moses? When I want you to catch me?” 

(Chapter VI, The Law of Moses)
Another warning being thrown, another rebelling step Georgia took on. Didn’t matter just how many times Moses recited his law, Georgia would rattle her own just to counter-attacked each point leaving Moses no options other than letting her leading him deeper.
“Georgia’s eyes. Georgia’s hair. Georgia’s smile. Georgia’s personality. Georgia’s kisses.” She batted her eyes. “See? Definitely five greats for Moses.” 

(Chapter VI, The Law of Moses)
And had he let her go deeper…
“And these are mine.”

She kissed my smallest finger. “Moses’s eyes.”

She moved to my ring finger. “Moses’s smile.”
Another kiss on the tallest tip. “Moses’s laugh.”
Her lips were so soft. “Moses’s art.”
She rounded to my thumb and placed her mouth gently against the pad. “Moses’s kisses.”
“Those are my five greats for Georgia today. Those were my five greats yesterday and they will be tomorrow and the next day, until your kisses get old. Then I’ll have to think of something else.” 
(Chapter VI, The Law of Moses)
Being with Georgia was the best feeling yet also the riskiest one he ever got. Georgia might always got everything wrapped around her little fingers, but Moses doubted she could deal with all his baggage permanently like G’s been done all her life.
“If you had to paint me, what colors would you use?”

“If I were to paint you, I would use every color.” 

(Chapter V, The Law of Moses)
Moses painted the dead to part the waters and let them cross in peace. It tortured him to see things people were not supposed to see. And he’d done it anyway because he had no other choices except that. But Georgia was the whole different case. She always wanted him to paint her in his life, to sketch her face in colorful brushstrokes against the wall of his heart. Moses had a choice this time: to do it or not. And whichever choice he took, he figured he’d just bring Georgia drowning in dark water instead of the other way around. 

When little did he know, sometimes you don’t actually figure things out unless you face them and deal with them on your own.


First, I’d like to say that the cover of this book is SUPER gorgeous!
AND this book had the most devastating prologue a book could ever have. Imagine that I already felt depressed and teary-eyed even before I read chapter one… That moment I knew that this book would obviously blow my mind till the end. And it did, people, it still does even now...

The Law of Moses featuring a unique and lovable hero named Moses. He’s got a way miserable past but as he grew up he proved to be able to outface the rumors mentioning his possible cracked future. He might be born as a crack baby from a crack-addict mother but they were all just labels people put on his surface. I fell in love with him from the first time Georgia narrated his childhood. 

I guess as she slowly grew a feeling for Moses time to time, I did too. 

What Moses went through in his life, it’s sad that we could easily find it happened around us. Different people, no matter physically, emotionally, mentally or just different because of some gift unknown to us, common people, seemed to always be judged of being on the wrong side of the road. This time, Ms. Harmon decided to bring up a story of different person who’s being one-sided by the community but turned out having something that ironically eventually helped the community itself. This time, Ms. Harmon took us to see this issue from inner perspective of the person itself, Moses, and of the closest person, Georgia. We learned that when they sometimes don’t show any attempt to counter the rumors, it isn’t because it was true, it’s because they choose to let it go until those people figure it out themselves.
Georgia was a fearless and loyal girl. I loved how she always tried hard to stay true to her feeling for Moses for such a long time. I loved how she relentlessly pushed the door to his heart even though he always tried to double-lock it whenever it came loose. Sadly when her moment to back away came around, it was the moment when she suffered the most. Yet, deep inside she still felt the same for the boy who kept pushing her away every time.
Ms. Harmon successfully created a complex plot of the story. I loved that she opted for realistic way all the time, just like how real life was. I might be able to predict a twist but we all know that Ms. Harmon never surprised us with just a single thing. Furthermore, she led us to an endless plot full of surprises where it seemed like there’s no way out but eventually she always had a way to solve it neatly and gradually. It’s not too miraculous or overly depressing. I especially loved the touching details she put in every scene, making the whole story more alive and richer. Also the religious touch that often came up just added another point for the poignant side.
Even though there were a lot of tear-jerking scenes along the way, I barely cried until I got to somewhere near the end.
Okay, I cried a bit, as in some tears hanging in the edge of my lashes but it worsened in some point on last chapter. There was a scene where a character described what love was in a really innocent way. That scene made me a blubbering mess and I felt like gasping for air for I didn’t remember how long…
“Do you think she knows how much I love her?”

“You gave her flowers and said you were sorry.”

“I did.”
“You kissed her.”
I could only nod.
“You painted her pictures and hugged her when she cried.”
“Yeah,” I whispered.
“You laughed with her too.”
I nodded again.
“Those are all the ways to say I love you.” 
(Chapter XXXI, The Law of Moses)
I think I need to stop now before I ended up quoting every line from the book.
What I’m going to say now that no matter how long and detailed I went on with my review, it still didn’t justify the awesome real feeling and sensation I got from reading this book. Like people said, you have to experience it first before you say something about it.
So, people, go and experience this book. You’ll want it.


Love, read, and review,
Cynthia D.

June 4, 2015

Book Review: Infinity + One by Amy Harmon

Infinity + One
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

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“I believe in Bonnie and Clyde”

I’m on Amy Harmon books readathon this June and Infinity + One is my third book of Ms. Harmon after A Different Blue and Making Faces. I’m proud to say that all the three books are now my best all time favorite.
I’m pretty sure I’ll be saying this every time I’m about to review Amy Harmon’s books. But really, this is all I’ve got when it comes to her books:
The word ‘great’ obviously doesn’t cover what I feel about this book. So does ‘well-written’, ‘amazing’, ‘awesome’, or ‘beautiful’. Even ‘perfection’ doesn’t entirely represent what this book looks to me. Infinity + One is masterpiece with infinite number of perfections in every inch of it.

Bonnie Rae Shelby was a national sweetheart. She’s the famous country singer who built her career from zero with tears, pain, loss, and invisible hole shadowing her path. She might appear cheerful and bright but really, the saddest person was the one who smiled the widest. No one knew exactly what kind of miserable life someone like Bonnie shouldered ever since the day she became superstar. Well, no one cared after all, except the one who was already long gone along with Bonnie’s heart. She used to always think she’d come undone one of these days. So when she thought she found the perfect timing, she grabbed the chance to jump off the bridge and leave it all behind… 

Infinity James Clyde only wanted one more chance on his hanging-on-the-thread life. One chance to start over and wipe clean the dark mist he was in. And God had he try hard to forget what had happened to him on the past six years. Clyde finally got a clean slate now, even though he always seemed to picture the worst end of everything. He knew it would not do him any good but for someone whose past as wrecked as his, he really had no choice other than being wary over people coming to his path. At least he didn’t feel that way toward number. Number was exact and definite. Numbers, formulas, equations, or just anything math-related could always numb his scared feeling and gave away a sweet escape because that’s the only thing he was great at as long as he could remember. When a friend offered him a job in Vegas, he was eager to welcome the new state with hope to start a new life. Perhaps, whatever in Vegas could give something only ‘number’ could give all along.

The second Infinity James Clyde saw the girl on the railing, he knew she was a trouble. And a hundred percent right, he was at that. The girl was like a trouble magnet and he had no idea why he got the urge to responsible of her on that first strange-meet. Was she probably a Clyde-magnet too? Maybe yes. Or maybe it was fate. He didn’t know how it’d happened but he soon found himself letting the girl to tag along and drove across the country with her instead of on his own. Clyde was almost sure that Bonnie was emotionally questioned because just minutes ago she was suicidal but now she looked so innocent and a little too talkative for a 21 years old girl. He should’ve hated her for all the troubles he was in ever since she ‘presented’ on his trip. But no, he did not. And God knows how much he frustrated and hated himself for that.

“You’re gonna have to make up your mind whether or not you hate me, Clyde.”

“I don’t hate you, Bonnie.” 

(Chapter VII, Infinity + One)
Bonnie and Clyde. Two strangers on a trip with inexact destination. None of them ever imagined of meeting a stranger, went on a road trip across the states together, baring their souls in the process, letting fate do his trick, and fell in love on day three. None of them ever thought that they would meet someone whose name was like fated with theirs; resembling the names of a famous couple in history. And now it seemed that they would repeat their story, minus the criminal doings. Bonnie was quick to grow on Clyde. And so did him on her. None of them was willing to confess their truest feelings at first. They just wanted to stay free as bird, to go and go and had not worry about anything complicated between them.
“What’s infinity plus one?” 

“It’s still infinity,” Finn said, sighing.

“Wrong. It’s two.”

“Oh yeah? How do you figure?”
I pointed at Finn and said, “Infinity.” Then I pointed at myself and said, “Plus one. That’s two, genius.” 
(Bonnie; Chapter VIII, Infinity + One)
Bonnie soon couldn’t deny what she felt toward Clyde a.k.a. Finn. Never once she found someone who cared for her sincerely. She knew alright that she was a serious bomb of trouble and Clyde obviously disliked her. Yet he seemed to always come back for her. If that wasn’t a feeling mirrored hers, then what?
“Finn? I’m a twin. You’re a twin. […]. So what does that make us? Are we halves?” 

(Bonnie; Chapter IX, Infinity + One)
Unfortunately, Clyde was so scared of being ruined once again. Little did she know that Clyde was already ruined the moment their eyes met. But his constant pushes were harsh. And she hated him to act like that because honestly she herself was scared as hell about the ending of Bonnie and Clyde remake story.
“Don’t worry, Infinity. Didn’t you tell me infinity plus one is still infinity? Without me, you’ll still be you.” 

(Bonnie; Chapter XIX, Infinity + One)
What funny about love was the more you denied it the more it grew on you. Your heart, your mind, your moves, your words, right to the deepest part of your soul. Clyde was sure he was the one who’s going crazy soon in full force.
“You drive me crazy! You irritate the hell out of me. You make me want to pull my hair out, and every damn thing has gone wrong since the moment we met.

“But I still want you.” 

(Clyde; Chapter XIII, Infinity + One)
Their trip lasted a week. A week of Bonnie bared her souls to Clyde to the extent that he did the same for her. Clyde was so lost at words of just how much the amount of his feeling for her. When what he feared finally happened to them in the end of the road, he was left contemplating his own issue alone. No Bonnie to trick him into caring for her. Just him and his wary and insecure feeling. His mouth could say out loud that Bonnie and Clyde had died long ago but could his heart repeat the same words? He could go on with his paradox but the answer was very simple. It was in his heart, hanging on his lips, ready to be said any moment.
“What’s Infinity plus one?” she whispered and kissed his unsmiling mouth, and he answered her from his heart and not his head.

“It’s not infinity after all. It’s not even two. It’s one, Bonnie Rae. Didn’t you tell me? You and me? We’re two halves of a whole. We’re one.” 

(Chapter XXVIII, Infinity + One)
I so damn enjoyed writing a synopsis of Infinity + One above.
There was not even a single thing about this book that I didn’t like. Just like what I said earlier, this book had infinite number of perfections every inch of it. The plot was perfection. The writing style was perfection. The characters were perfection. And I could go on with the name of each element of this book but it would do no good to my review.
Ms. Harmon just officially topped my list of favorite authors. She actually is tied with Mia Sheridan. Though their genres are slightly different, but their writings give away the same contented feeling in my heart, mind, and soul.
What I loved so much about this book was how Ms. Harmon went on and on about philosophy of math and connected them with life and love smoothly. If I didn’t read the dedication or the acknowledge pages, I’d be sure that Ms. Harmon was actually a math teacher herself. I was so fascinated by how beautiful her word of choices. I fell in love with every damn sentence she wrote. This one below just stole my heart big time…
‘He kissed me soundly, a performance worthy of his thousand dollar suit, and then kissed me again, though we didn’t raise the curtain for the encore.’ 

(Bonnie; Chapter XXII, Infinity + One)
See? This sentence is just so darn beautiful I want to cry a river… ;__;

And this book got a plus point from me for the funny parts. I was so afraid that it’d be as depressed as A Different Blue (which masochist-me loved so much) but it was not. I laughed a lot and smiled a lot that my gum hurt it’s not even funny.
I love Bonnie and Clyde/Finn characters. Bonnie was not the heroine who’s too angelic or too bad-ass. She had right amount of both sides and she’s adorable because of that. She was reckless and made mistakes too much. But it was balanced with her kind heart. And I wanted to kidnap Clyde so bad and kiss him day and night all year for putting his belief and faith on her, on them. I loved it every time Clyde made a jerk move but in the end he would always go all jellyfish and say calming words for her every burst-out.
“We’re Bonnie and Clyde! Wanted and unwanted. Caged and cornered. We’re lost and we’re alone. We’re big, tangled mess. We’re a shot in the dark. We’re two people who have nowhere else, no one else, and yet, suddenly that feels like enough for me! I’m sorry if it’s not enough for you.”

“It’s more than enough for me, Bonnie Rae.” 

(Chapter XV, Infinity + One)
And I laughed so much on the scene where he consciously turned into a yes-man repeatedly for Bonnie just by her calling a syllable of his name. God, this couple made me wants to marry my love tomorrow. Lol…
I’m not going to say more about the plot. The whole story is a myriad of surprises so you better go find out yourself. I have been so careful with my synopsis to not give away any spoilers so hopefully you’ll feel exactly what I felt about this book the first time I read it. Read it read it read it, okay? :)


Love, read, and review,
Cynthia D.