October 20, 2014

Book Review: Me Before You by Jojo Moyes

Me Before You
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

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I was planning to settle down my emotional feeling first before doing the review but it just hasn't subsided yet since last night so yea... where do I start from?
I am a romance-addict and always fancy ones with happy endings. There were two or three books I've read with sad ending and I ended up hating the author for weeks. But things are different with Me Before YouI know. I've been warned by the reviews that this book was about awfully heartbreaking love story. But it didn't stop me from trying it out myself. I had this thing in mind before started reading: "This is a heartbreaking love story, don't expect for an ending that you want in mind"Yet, I still did.

I had several mini heart-attacks during my reading this book, like one on prologue, another ones on every chapter endings... But I haven't stopped hoping for miracle to happen (yes, I did, I know). I was so amazed at the way Jojo played with the readers' emotion from chapter to chapter. How she suddenly changed the point of view when things got interesting on the previous chapter and we were dying to know what exactly happened from Lou's or Will's point of view. I loved how she'd created every character in this book. Like, for Will Traynor, a once passionate man having a turning-upside-down life after an accident. He became sensitive and moody yet the gentle side of him still existed inside. It was finally brought out of him by a comfort-zone-lover, Louisa Clark. I really loved it when Louisa fired back every sarcasm that was thrown at her by Will. You know, that is actually the best thing to do when you're facing sensitive person who just has a big accident that change their whole life. Don't accept their sarcasm but be sarcastic with them.

Reading Me Before You has given me so many things to rethink about in life. I found myself thinking back what I've been doing with my life these past 22 years, what things that I've been avoiding in life, what things I've actually been wanting to do in life but never done. Like Louisa, by the end of the book, I am intrigued to take a step out of my comfort zone. To do anything I want, to go anywhere I want, and never bother to think what people would say about me.
In the end, Will Traynor wasn't just helping Louisa Clark to do better in her life, but me as well.
I never really am affected this much by a book before but Me Before You has changed my point of view of life that I've been leading on these years.

So, even though the ending of this book was not kind of ending I always fancy from romance book, I am completely satisfied that I found this book and chose to read it. I also learned a lesson that this book has shown me what a real love story actually happened around us. Not everything ends with happiness, but the sad end is not always the bad kind of ending. It is not the start or the result that matters, but the process in between does.

I am so glad I came across this book and I am totally grateful for Jojo Moyes for writing this wonderful book, for creating Will Traynor who I've oddly fallen deeply in love with and Louisa Clark who's been showing me what should be done to make the person you love happy even though it means breaking your own heart (Yes, I did take out this italic sentence from the blurb of this book).
So, definitely five stars for every aspect of this book!

p.s. Here are several parts where my sobbing turned into an ugly real crying last night.
When I finally spoke, my voice was a small broken thing. What emerged was the only thing I could safely say."I missed you".
I realized I was afraid of living without him. How is it you have the right to destroy my life, I wanted to demand of him, but I'm not allowed a say in yours? But I promised.

So I held him, Will Traynor, ex-City whiz kid, ex-stunt driver, sportsman, traveller, lover.
'...I am conscious that knowing me has caused you pain, and grief, and I hope that one day when you are less angry with me and less upset you will see not just that I could only have done the thing that I did, but also that this will help you live a really good life, a better life, than if you hadn't met me'.
'You are scored in my heart, Clark. You were from the first day you walked in, with your ridiculous clothes and your bad jokes and your complete inability to ever hide a single thing you felt...'
Love, read, and review,
Cynthia D.

Poetry: Time

So, I was inspired to write this poetry by the latest post of my idol Wuyifan on his instagram. It's been a while since he last updated his account so I was kind of hysterical when I first saw it. He only said one word: 'time' and it was enough to drive me insane because.. HELLO? It's been centuries since we, the meigeni, heard about him and here he is only saying one word on his comeback. I then decided to write a poem about it. Well, at last knowing he's not leaving his instagram account (which would definitely making us Int'l fans freak out and clueless) is enough to make me happy. And he's so cool in that photo so he's forgiven anyway <3

As you chose your way
I think you wanted to be away
Along with you, my all hopes and dreams, drifted away

I was praying to God you’d come back someday
I was on my knees crying and murmuring
your name on display
All I could think of was you don’t appear at day
Nor night whenever I did my pray
I could only blame time in this play

I was not ready when you were all brave and challenged
I just hoped you don’t leave but then again, who am I to command?
Again, in time I put the sharp blame

I kissed the air in order to breathe your scent
I was all fire and in a total upset
But again, this is you on set
I breathed in, I have fallen for you I swear 
And again, blaming time felt so fine

I have waited for you
Still waiting, my heart’s crew
My purest little dew
Time, all the blames, that’s your due

But then it all happened so suddenly
You came back, sounded so softly
Smiled heartily
Oh boy, I miss you and it’s a lofty

You said ‘Time’
What’s with time?
It’s on the blame, right?

'No', your voice was strong
I pursed my lips, baby you’re wrong

'No', again you said, 'time wasn't on the blame, isn't and won't be'
‘Time was hard, but it moved forward and dragged me along to fight and see’
‘Time led me to another realization, that things that we were, are never always the things we later will be’
‘Time broke us apart for a moment, only to let us meet again in a much better shape’

'I did leave, but not leaving you'
‘I just need my time to bend and all prepared for you’
‘Time heals, remember?’
‘It did, that’s why I’m here now’
‘To witness your every brave moves, to reply all your sweet I-love-yous, to appreciate all the ever so pretty twinkling stars, my every you’

I put a hand on top of my lung,
it’s pounding fast and you know why.

I’m sorry. Time it is.
Time heals, even to my liver.
I inhale your smell and eyes set to your eyes, flicker.
Indeed, this is the man I love for forever.

© 2014